This week, we finally got snow...which was welcomed enthusiastically by the two "littles". Both went outside to catch snowflakes on their tongues and humoured me taking some pictures of them. Marissa built a snowman on Wednesday when the sticky snow was falling, and it was a good thing I took pictures right then, because the following morning it was leaning over to the right due to the warmth...
Since then we've gotten more snow, so I decided to go out and take some pictures! I just have a simple phone camera, but am trying to hone my skills over time--maybe someday a rich benefactor will gift me a fancier camera to work with (lol). Anyways, here are a few snapshots of the yard. Hope you like them!
Last thing to mention, I'll be leaving Facebook--not that that matters if you are following me here! Facebook was once an important tool for me. During my cancer treatment, I was able to be in touch with people and share my journey. When Makenna and Marissa were born and it was really hard to leave the house due to various challenges, it became my social life to some degree. It was such a huge help to me on my Down syndrome parenting journey-the support I recieved helped me pull out of the depression and anxiety I found myself in and impacted me in so many ways. That impact is the main reason I volunteer as a group moderator for DSDN!
More recently, though, Facebook isn't a blessing. It robs me of time with useless ads, it adds drama due to people no longer having any filters or feeling anonymous enough they no longer care about kindness or believing the best in people, useless algorithms decide whether or not people even see posts.
I also need to admit that I'm human. We aren't rich, and our lives aren't perfect, and I've been having a hard time seeing things that others post and that have left me struggling. Sometimes it's envy or jealousy over what others have or seeing others out having fun and I'm not invited (don't get me wrong, I don't think they are doing anything wrong). Sometimes it's seeing what looks like a perfect family, with perfect kids, and no struggles (yes, I know that looks can be deceiving and many people only show the "pretty" side of their lives), and grieving that my life looks so different, and this leading to feelings of loneliness. Most recently, this has been the biggest reason for losing interest in Facebook...
So when it was announced at the DSDN retreat that they were developing an app and rolling it out around the new year, one of my last reasons for still being there will no longer hold me back from leaving. So, I am reaching out to friends and family and letting them know I won't be there (even with that the dumb algorithms are keeping people from seeing that post-ugh), and giving them time to decide if they want to find another way to keep in touch. I'm hoping that some of them will find their way here...
Anyways, I plan to post new posts here fairly regularly for those that want to use my blog as a way to keep in touch! Have a blessed weekend!
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